groin hernia

 My groin hernia is getting worse. I'm wearing a hernia belt, which helps. And I'm on miralax, so taking a dump is very easy. But still the lining that keeps my intestines inside me is expanding and weakening. I'd wisely blame God, if that's possible. Foolishly blaming God kindles God's wrath. Let's steer clear of that. I've rubbed olive oil in it and prayed. Here's one of my favorites from Psalms.

Awake! Why sleepest Thou O Lord? Arise, Cast us not off forever!

Then a variant of Matthew 13:10-18,

Open my eyes and ears and give me a heart of flesh and understanding and turn and heal me O Jesus!

I whine some like a little girl, which is really disgusting.

Very frustrating.

Praying for death hasn't helped.